Its official: I’ve finally become a loser fanboy.
This, somehow, despite the fact that I am not male. Funny how that works. Saying ‘loser fangirl’, though, implies that I’m drooling and shrieking about how hot someone is as well, though, which, while the loser fanboy is also well-known for craziness about certain characters or people, it isn’t quite the same as the variety assumed for loser fangirls.
Actually, its probably better to describe it as finally falling fully into the bottomless crevass of nerd-dom. I mean, before I certainly dabbled in it – come on, anime and sci-fi? Could I really claim to be anything other than that? I got excited over Sci-Fi channel movies, bought Torchwood action figures, got thrills out of reading the descriptions of the upcoming season’s new anime, wrote fanfics… and was disappointed that I couldn’t do any fanart…
So, yeah, not like I was terribly far from being a total loser nerd anyway. But I had a life! I was in good shape and wasn’t afraid of sunlight! I interacted with real, 3D people! I wasn’t a total lost cause!
In the past two weeks, though, all of that ended… and I fully transcended any ‘normal’ attributes I had, or at least transcended any non-nerd attributes I had (I really can’t claim to be anything approximating the mainstream norm, honestly – I’m actually pretty weird in everyday life, so even if the nerdiness wasn’t apparent, people can generally pick me out as being a bit odd). I…
Day reached level 32! Something is happening…!
Day evolved into… NERDAY!
So, how exactly did this happen?
Well, it goes like this – since I got back from training, at first I was lazy. Completely lazy. I caught up on sleep and caught up on shows I’d been following. I checked out a bunch of summer shows! All routine, all normal! I even did things like exercising and going to the bookstore and going for walks in the city… all like the life I’d been living!
And then… I bought a used copy of Pokemon LeafGreen.
And then… I made the mistake of flipping casually through a BL manga at the bookstore.
Succinctly, then: this morning, as I sat reading BL for about the third day in a row, it hit me: all I’ve been doing for the past five days has been playing Pokemon and reading BL. Except, I thought of it this way, “Wait, all I do these days is play Pokemon and read porn… OH SHIT.”
…and then I kept reading and got annoyed when the batteries on my Gameboy died.
…I can has a Kanon figure now? Please? I can put it next to my Jack Harkness figure… they can be friends… and my friends too… we can read BL together… uguuu~